The Seeds Are Planted…

I was excited this weekend to find…my first zinnia bloom of the season…it’s First Zinnialovely…a deep orangey-red…smallish…but…pretty perfect…this morning it is joined by…deep pink…light pink…purplish pink…friends…all of which make a nice bouquet in my planter…

Bertha…smiled when she saw the first bloom…and said…what else…it reminded her of my life…

She said that a few weeks back…when I planted a packet of mixed zinnia seeds…I really had no idea…what I would get…they could have all been the same color…they could have been the one color that I don’t really like that much…

Her point was…I planted the seeds…watered them…made sure they got enough sunlight…pulled the weeds that threatened them…all without any guarantee of exactly what they would be when they grew…

That’s when she pulled it back to my life…reminding me…that I’ve been planting a lot of seeds lately…in various areas of my life…and…although I have no idea exactly how they will grow…what they will look like…all I really have to do is…water them…make sure they get enough sunlight…pull the weeds that threaten them…and…then…be delighted with the results…

Hmmm…I hope they are as lovely as the zinnias…

Jane

Finding Integrity…

Lately…I’ve had some pretty major decisions to make…Bertha Chose

Hmmm…what to do…

Bertha’s…advice to me…when making decisions…is always to do what feels good…at first…I have to admit…I thought she was giving me carte blanche to…run rampant through the mall swiping my credit card until it melted…eat decadent food at every whim…and…well…you get the picture…

Thankfully…she corrected me…I guess she got tired of me complaining about the bills and being overweight…but I digress…

She explained to me…that…feeling good…only comes from a place of integrity…anything that makes me feel guilty…or in any way goes against my moral code…doesn’t feel good in the long run…

I have to admit…even though this is great advice…I don’t always take it…sometimes…I swipe my card one time too many and end up eating Ramen noodles at the end of the month…sometimes…I give in to that yummy dessert and count calories for a couple of days…

I have to say…I was a bit surprised when…Bertha…laughed and told me that these slips weren’t necessarily out of my integrity…it’s the conscious choice that I’m making…that makes the difference…

If I buy this…is it worth being creative with the budget the rest of the month…if I eat this…is it worth cutting back for a couple of days…the difference is…awareness…conscious choice…

And that…she says…is integrity…

Hmmm…wonder how that’s going to play out in my…big…decisions…oh…no worries…I’m sure…Bertha…will be happy to tell me…

Jane