One Man’s Difficult…

Someone…recently described me as…difficult…my first response was…to think of all the ways that my…difficultness…had been warranted…of all the ways…that I was…right…and they were…wrong…to perpetuate myself…as the victim…of unjust criticism…

Of course…Bertha…only let me wallow in those sentiments…for a few minutes…before…she pointed out the obvious…I was difficult…at least from…the other person’s perspective

Yikes…she was right…I was…although…I prefer to think of it as…determined…that sounds more…genteel…kind of like saying women…dew…instead of perspirealthough…they still smell like sweat at the end of the day…

Anyway…regardless of whether I was difficult or determined…she was actually proud of me…for taking a stand…for setting a boundary…for believing in my worth…for…not backing down…

And…I have to admit…these are not easy things for me to do…it’s much easier…just to go with someone else’s flow…and…say…whatever…so…that no one…refers to me as…difficult…I am a people pleaser…after all…

But…Bertha…says I have to let go of other people’s opinion of me…let go of the expectation…that…everyone…is going to…or…should…agree with me…like me…

Hmmm…not easy for a people pleaser…or a reforming people pleaser…as I hope I am

But…Bertha…promises…that as I let other people’s opinions go…and…live from my heart…that…real movement will take place in my life…movement…that will take me to the places that I want to go…

And…she says…it really isn’t…difficult

Jane

Now I See It…

Bertha…reminded me of a concept she taught me a while back…and…I may have blogged about it…but…if I’m not sure…then maybe you aren’t either…

Anyway…she brought to mind the image of a crescent moon…and…how…from my perspective…that tiny sliver…is all there is…at that moment…when…in truth…the entire moon is there…it’s just tilted…slanted…in such a way…that…I can’t see it…

She says…it’s the same in my life…all of my good…is always there…it’s just that sometimes…I view it through a very narrow lens…so that it appears…that only a sliver…is mine…

My mission…if I choose to accept it…and…I do…is to embrace and celebrate…the full moon…and…all my good…even when I can’t physically see it…

Shine on…

Jane