Death of a Christmas Tree…

It happened just after I went to bed last night…crash…I thought it was the icemaker dumping…but…alas…it wasn’t…it was…the…sprangly tree

Now…although…I know why it fell…it had such a tiny trunk…that although we had tightened the screws all the way…it just wasn’t enough to hold it in place…what…I don’t understand…is…why

Why…at that exact moment…what was the straw that broke the Christmas Tree’s back…was it the present that had been placed under it…the special new ornament…the fact that I touched it briefly when I passed by earlier…

What…why…

Bertha…laughed…oh…not at the poor tree…not at the broken ornaments…not at the water that bucked the wood floor just a bit…no…she laughed at the silliness of my question…

Reminding me…in life…there is rarely a defined…what…why…at least not one that I can recognize…that I can hold in my hand…as I cross invisible lines…

Jane

My Sprangly Life…

Last year…my Christmas tree was…perfect…it was barely taller than me…so I could easily decorate the top of it…it had a precise conical shape…not a bad side to be found…and…nice tight branches…it was simply…the prettiest tree I had ever had…

This year…my sweetie and I…accompanied Mama…and my nephew’s family…to cut a wild cedar tree…which was a lot of fun and quite the adventure in and of itself…perhaps the topic of another blog

Anyway…we got the tree home…it’s big…and…sprangly…messy…overfills the spot a bit…has delicate branches…that won’t hold much weight…and…lots of them…some of the ornaments won’t work this year…we’ll probably need some new ones…and…the bottom is a bit devoid of lights…

Bertha…says…it reminds her of my life…last year…it was small…it was neat…it was tidy…this year…it’s big…it’s sprangly…it’s messy…and…yes…the branches are a little delicate…and there are a lot of them…some of my old ornaments…won’t work anymore…I may need some new ones…may…want…some new ones…

And…you know…for once…I totally get her analogy…and…I smile…as I remember stringing the lights last night…in my mind…I thought we’d put on some Christmas music…maybe have a cup of cocoa…it would be a Hallmark moment…but…he sweetly asked…do you mind if we turn on the game

Jane…

PS…and…if I didn’t mention…this is the most beautiful tree I’ve ever had…hands down…