Grumble…Grumble…

Earlier in the week…I went for an afternoon gym session…I usually go before work…and I noticed a woman that I haven’t seen in a couple of years…she really looked good…I could see the muscle definition in her arms and legs…definition that wasn’t there the last time I’d seen her…

My first response was to feel discouraged and grumble…well…she looked better and I didn’t…if life isn’t fair…then…grumbling should be…

No…not according to you know who…Bertha…who said that instead of grumbling…I should look at her as encouragement for the efforts that I’ve been making…she reminded me…that during those same two years…I had that little thing called…brain surgery…which was the reason that I quit training at the time…and…here this woman was…proof positive…that although I don’t see a huge change after a couple of months working out…that with consistency…in a couple of years…I will have made huge strides…

Hmmm…I hadn’t thought of it that way…but…I still grumbled a little…about wasted time…and well…just because I was in a grumbling mood…

Then…I saw the same woman yesterday at the grocery store…she really looked good…we smiled…we spoke…I told her…I could tell she appreciated it…she agreed that she had really been working hard…that she pushed herself…but that she did it because she liked the results…

This morning…on my day off…I got up early…and went to the gym…I didn’t grumble…well…maybe just a little

Jane

PS…she also related it all to my life…of course…and reminded me of my writing…and that the same holds true for it…I hate when she double teams me…

Two Years and Counting…

I’m celebrating today…it’s my friend’s birthday…but…that’s not why I’m celebrating…and…at our age…I’m not sure she is either…but regardless of birthday wishes…I’m celebrating my two year anniversary…

That’s right…two years ago today…I had posterior fossa decompression…due to Chiari I Malformation

I remember getting ready for the surgery…it was such a surreal feeling…I think the main thing was…not knowing what the outcome would be…not really even knowing what to expect…there isn’t a lot of medical information out there about what to expect following the surgery…

I think that’s because…they simply don’t know and can’t really predict…how anyone is going to do…it’s pretty individualized…and depends on the extent of nerve damage prior to surgery…and other co-existing conditions…so…they just don’t say…

So…that’s why I write about my Chiari experience from time to time…just in case there’s someone out there…who needs to read about it…

Honestly…from my instant gratification standpoint…it seems to have been a slow recovery for me…although I went back to work at three months…I honestly didn’t feel like it…and I struggled the two months I worked until summer vacation…

The next school year was better…but…I still didn’t feel that great…and by early summer…just before eighteen months out from surgery…I thought this was just gonna be the rest of my life…foggy brain…numb arm and face…frustrations and aggravations…

Then…suddenly…at eighteen months…things seemed to rapidly start getting better…the numbness improved…I had a great MRI…showing continued improvement…and…the fogginess was gone…

On the fogginess…it was the same time that I started eliminating processed carbs…yes…and sugar…from my diet…so…I can’t be sure…what helped…if it was just time…or…no carbs…but…the good thing is…feeling better is definitely a motivator to keep me following my new dietary lifestyle

Fast forward another six months…and it’s today…and…I continue to improve…my stamina is better…until a couple of months ago…exercise made me feel worse instead of better…I’m actually building up my sick days again…haven’t had to take one so far this year…

I did read somewhere that full recovery from the surgery could take up to five years…at the time I thought that was crazy…how could it possibly take that long…but…now…I realize…it is a slow process…but…like the tortoise…I’m winning the race

Jane