Wave Crashers…

I’ve been feeling tumultuous lately…not quite being able to settle down fromJane Carroll one surge of emotions…before…the next one comes crashing through…

I find that frustrating…I mean…I’ve been doing my spiritual practices…without fail…prayer…meditation…affirmation…contemplation…forgiveness…I’ve done them all…and…yet…the emotional waves keep coming…

What am I doing wrong…

Bertha…assures me…I’m doing nothing wrong…in fact…I’m doing everything right…she says during times of growth…that strong emotions will surface…be exposed for work and healing…but once they are healed…the next wave is ready to peak…

She says…that without the practices that I do…I wouldn’t be seeing a series of waves…that it would be more like a tsunami…

I hadn’t thought of it in those terms…hadn’t thought of this as a time of rapid growth…I remember now…thinking this summer would be a time of learning and growth…I embraced that…I welcomed it…

Be careful what you ask forBertha…chides…

And…she’s right…I have gotten exactly what I had asked for…just not the way I thought it would be…I thought it would be the equivalent of sitting on the mountain top…not lying on the beach with the surf pounding me…

So…for autumn…I’m thinking…I’ll be more selective…smooth sailing…with gentle breezes…I think I’ve grown and learned enough for a while…

Hmmm…I wonder how that will play out…

Jane

Joy…Why Bother…

The other day…I’m loving that expression as I realize it’s the Southern version Jane Carrollof…once upon a time…I was cranky…and…I don’t mean just a little grumpy…I mean…a full blown…crabapple cranky…and I had the sour face and attitude to show for it…

Bertha…being…Bertha…let me crank for a while…before chiding me…

Now…let me explain…whenBertha…chides…she doesn’t call me stupid or anything like that…no…that’s my other inner voice…rather…she points out to me…that there’s probably a different way I can look at things…

So…as we went over the situation that had me so riled…she pointed out that I was allowing what was…bothering…someone else…to…bother…me…

And…she was absolutely right…how simple…why didn’t I realize that…yes…I had been dealing with someone who was bothered about something…and instead of stepping back…and letting them be bothered…I took it on…I embraced it…I claimed it…and…I became…itbothered

Looking back…it was so easy to see what had happened…but…I wanted foresight not just hindsight…so I asked…how do I keep from getting knee deep in the Tar Baby of bother again…

Of course…she was happy to ‘splain it to me…seems as though…the more I can keep myself in a place of…joy…the less susceptible I am to…bother

She then reminded me…that to stay in a place of joy…I needed to work on it…prayer…forgiveness…mediation…affirmation…and consciously looking for the joy around me…whether it is in nature…people…memes on Facebook…it doesn’t matter…there is at least a smidgen of joy wherever I am…

Hmmm…I really don’t enjoy being…bothered…so I think I’ll be looking for those smidgens of joy today…

Jane