My Sprangly Life…

Last year…my Christmas tree was…perfect…it was barely taller than me…so I could easily decorate the top of it…it had a precise conical shape…not a bad side to be found…and…nice tight branches…it was simply…the prettiest tree I had ever had…

This year…my sweetie and I…accompanied Mama…and my nephew’s family…to cut a wild cedar tree…which was a lot of fun and quite the adventure in and of itself…perhaps the topic of another blog

Anyway…we got the tree home…it’s big…and…sprangly…messy…overfills the spot a bit…has delicate branches…that won’t hold much weight…and…lots of them…some of the ornaments won’t work this year…we’ll probably need some new ones…and…the bottom is a bit devoid of lights…

Bertha…says…it reminds her of my life…last year…it was small…it was neat…it was tidy…this year…it’s big…it’s sprangly…it’s messy…and…yes…the branches are a little delicate…and there are a lot of them…some of my old ornaments…won’t work anymore…I may need some new ones…may…want…some new ones…

And…you know…for once…I totally get her analogy…and…I smile…as I remember stringing the lights last night…in my mind…I thought we’d put on some Christmas music…maybe have a cup of cocoa…it would be a Hallmark moment…but…he sweetly asked…do you mind if we turn on the game

Jane…

PS…and…if I didn’t mention…this is the most beautiful tree I’ve ever had…hands down…

Be Brave…Heart

I have a ring…it is a wide silver band…inscribed…love life…and…on the inside…be brave…my daughter gave it to me a few years ago…she bought one for both of us…

This morning…as I look at my hand…Bertha…is reminding me…to love my life…to live my truth…and…to be brave enough to do that…every moment of every day…

She says…that it takes bravery…to love my life…when it doesn’t seem to be perfect…because…it is so easy to focus on the imperfections…but…to step out of my comfort zone…and…appreciate all the things that I love about it…takes a certain kind of courage…

She also reminds me…that the only way…I can…love life…is to…live my truth…and…we all know…that isn’t always easy…it takes a lot of courage…to stand in front of the world…as…exactly who I am…and…I have to admit…some days…I don’t have it…I cave…I go with the flow…I hold my tongue…when it shouldn’t be held…by not expressing my needs…my truth…

But…today…I have on the ring…today…Bertha…says…I can…love life…I can…be brave…and she will help me…

Jane