Checks and Balances…

Bertha…and I have grappled with the concept of…living…or…writing about living…and…generally…she’s in favor of…living…her theory being…how can I write about life…if I’m not experiencing it…

And…that’s true…sitting home alone…in front of a keyboard…doesn’t give me a lot of material…

And…yet…

There are days…when the choice is…live…or…write…I choose…write

And…Bertha…says…that is just fine…too…she says…life is a balance…kind of like my bank account…should be…some days…I make…deposits…and…some days…I make…withdrawals…the trick is…to keep more in…than I’m taking out…

Hmmm…I wonder if I enjoy…some…life…this weekend…if my checkbook will balance on Monday morning…

Jane

Playing Favorites…

Today…is…Friday…and…I’m doing the TGIF dance…looking forward to the weekend…and…all that it will bring…

Two weeks ago…Friday…meant nothing…it was summer break…mostly I didn’t even keep up with the days of the week…they were pretty much equal…but…going back to work…changes all of that…

Monday…and…Friday…become…gatekeepers…to the work week…to the weekend…and…I suddenly know…exactly what day it is…and…quite honestly…Saturday and Sunday…are my favorites…

I felt a little guilty for admitting that…what if my boss sees this post…what if they think I hate my job…what if…what if…what if

Bertha…just laughed at me…reminding me…that…I love my job…and everyone knows it…but…then…she tells me more…she tells me the real reason that I love my time off so much…

She says it’s not that I don’t enjoy my work…it’s just that I need the time off to…play…recharge…fill my tank…so…that I will have plenty to give…come Monday morning…

She further says…that when I am looking forward to…Friday…it’s because…my tank is getting empty…I’m running on fumes…which just means…I need to take a bit more time during the week…to do the things that fill me up…prayer…contemplation…meditation…affirmation…exercise…

And…if I’m dreading…Monday…she says…I just haven’t gotten full on the weekend…so…I’m going in…half-tanked…so to speak…

Hmmm…Bertha…not sure I like that phrase…but…I get the meaning…and…it makes sense…

And…I realize…I haven’t taken…enough time this week…so…I think…I’ll take some now…

Jane