Fast Forward…Past Forgiveness…

Jane CarrollIt’s easier to trust the future when you forgive the past. ~Bertha

I have a whole list of…Berthaisms…which I plug into Random.org when I’m feeling a few ideas shy of a blog…this is what I got today…

My first response was…really…moi…surely that doesn’t apply to me…

But…Bertha…assured me that it most certainly did…as she brought to mind an incident from my past…one that I really haven’t forgiven myself for…even though it’s been quite a long time…

Okay…busted…I’ve excused it…I’ve understood it…but…I haven’t fully forgiven it…

And…she pointed out…that it is holding me back…from moving forward in life…in the way that I want to…

Ouch…

So…how do I…forgive…the past…so that I can…trust…the future…

For starters…Bertha…says to spend some time…really looking at the situation… remembering the details as best as I can…what were my feelings at the time…

Shame…guilt…disgust…

Then…she says to…start by forgiving the feelings…

Huh…shouldn’t I be forgiving the actions…

No…she said the actions would come later…that the feelings…were self-sabotaging…they were me…selling myself short…thinking the worst of myself…she said the actions are long gone…it’s the feelings which I keep holding on to…and that are holding me back…

So…it’s contemplation chair time…practicing the Forgiveness Prayer…for the shame…guilt…disgust…I have been carrying around like a spare tire…pulling it out when things were going really good…telling myself…that maybe I didn’t deserve it so good…and…pulling back…

The Forgiveness Prayer…Ho’oponopono…is simple…I love you…I’m sorry…please forgive me…thank you… said simply between…me…and…me…

Jane…

Coaching with Jane Carroll and BerthaYou may wonder why I don’t just tell you what the situation was…and…that’s because…Bertha…says that…what you imagine it is…is probably what you need to forgive in your own life…she’s sneaky like that. Bertha and I would love to help you finally forgive those things in your past which are holding you back from the future of your dreams. Send us an email… janecarrollauthor@charter.net

 

New Year Possibilities and Probabilities…

Last year brought many challenges…which in retrospect…I see simply as 2015growth opportunities…and…now…with a little space and time…I am grateful for the lessons I learned…and for the healing which took place in my life…

Of course I have no way of knowing exactly what 2015 will bring…but I know…I feel optimistic…and excited…for whatBertha…is calling the possibilities and probabilities of the coming year…

I know I will continue to dig into my truth…own it…and live it…Bertha…is adamant about that…she’s also adamant that I assist other women who are ready to walk that path…shovel in hand…that excites me…I love coaching and being of assistance to other women…

Of course…Bertha…will still be the star of my writing…although we may take a different twist…who’s up for a cozy mystery featuring…Bertha…as she solves crimes and teaches truth along the way…I know I am…

I’ll still be a school nurse by day…and everything else by night and holidays…

My family will always be priority number one in my life…and…I may even find time for a relationship…who knows…

I know I will be questioning the truth of how I want to treat my body as I explore my dietary and exercise habits…both of which I have not honored in a while…but am anxious to do so again…

So…I am looking forward to those possibilities…and probabilities…

Jane…

What are you looking forward to in 2015…I’d love to hear in the comments…