Acting Still…

Bertha’s…on a roll again…this time…she’s reminding me…to be still…to goGranny's Rocker within…she’s been doing it in interesting ways…

Headaches…three days this week…reminding me…that all the things I thought I had to do…I really didn’t…she says that the body has a way…of getting your attention…when you aren’t listening to anything else…

Then…there was an article that I was to write for…Women as Visionaries with Lore Raymond Magazine…the topic was…action…but…Bertha…only reminded me…that being still…is an action…and that’s what the post will about…

And…of course…there have been several posts on Facebook…all about taking time…going within…resting…recuperating…

So…I’m getting the message…no…I can’t stop my world today and just sit in the contemplation chair…there are things that must be done…but…I can…stop and be still…before I get started…

And…now…I think…I’d like some time in Granny’s rocker…just to chill before I go…

Jane

Hello Chiari…It’s Me…Jane…

Yesterday…wasn’t my best day…I woke up still feeling kind of…fuzzy headedwhich had nothing to do with my coiffure…although…now that I think about it…that would have applied as well…

It had all to do with the fact…that a passing weather front had decided to…stop and stay for a few hours…which…sometimes…activates…my Chiari symptoms…

Thankfully…those pesky fronts…rarely cause the headaches that they did before my decompression surgery two and a half years ago…it’s more of a feeling…that…anything…and…everything…is just too much trouble…

The bed went unmade…the blog unwritten…the dishes unwashed…and…I rested until early afternoon…when…the rain came and the temperature dropped…and…suddenly I felt great again…

But…the bed went unmade…the blog unwritten…the dishes unwashed…well…I had made it that far into the day without doing them…I didn’t see the point in starting then…and I had other…fish to fry…as Mama would say…

I’m writing this today…because…there isn’t a lot of information about recovery from…Chiari I Malformation…and…that’s partly because…until a few years ago…many people…doctors included…had never even heard of it…although with MRIs…it is becoming a more common diagnosis…so…there hasn’t been time for a lot of studies and research into the long term effects…

The other reason…is that there is no one predictable course…everyone is different…as would be expected considering the nerve damage the Chiari causes…also…any co-existing conditions the patient might have…

I get numerous hits on my blog…from people who are seeking information…what to expect from surgery…what to expect in recovery…what to expect from life…

I will say for those of you who are seeking such information…my herniation was significant…35mm…all the way to T-1…and I had a thin syrinx from C-1 to C-7…I was 56 years old…my primary symptoms were…headaches…numbness of my face, arms, and hands…and increasing episodes of choking…and overall just not feeling quite right…the syrinx was detected by a Chiropractor who was looking for a ruptured cervical disc…I then went to a Neurosurgeon for treatment and decompression surgery…

I would love to be able to tell you what to expect…however…I can only share my own experience…which has been remarkable by many standards…but…slow and cantankerous…by mine…

I think…I know…I wanted it to be like my tonsillectomy…once it was done…my throat was sore for a few days…and then…I was back to my old self…

But…it didn’t happen that way…I guess…it’s just not the same with…brain tonsils…I was off work for three months…and…honestly didn’t feel like going back then…but…I did…knowing that I only had to survive two months before having…two months off for the summer…I ended up working four days a week…for the remainder of the school year…

For the first six months or so following surgery…I had a low grade fever…every day…which was controlled by taking ibuprofen…we never found a cause for it…no infection…or anything like that…probably just my brain parts readjusting to having a bit more room…

For the first year…I also had almost constant…low grade nausea…and craved…carbs…and…ice cream…which wasn’t the diet I’d planned for weight loss

The next year was better…but…I continued to be exhausted…not even having the energy to exercise…as I had hoped to do…

Last summer…I went gluten and sugar free…and started to feel better…this past year was a much better year…I had more energy…my thought process cleared…well…as clear as it will probably get…LOL…and…I felt like a person again…I was able to begin an exercise program…and although I didn’t push myself…I did exercise…

I continue to have some numbness mostly of my right arm…but…it’s not severe…I can deal with it…my neck gets tired when I sit at the computer for too long…which is almost every day…between writing and working as a school nurse…but…I’m learning to take breaks and change positions often…which helps…

Overall…this summer has been wonderful…with the exception of a few…weather days…I feel good…I’m enjoying life again…I just released my second book…Becoming Bertha…and am considering what to write next…sometimes…I think I should write about…Chiari…but…then again…I just did…

Jane

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