Have Headache…Will Work…

I woke up with a headache this morning…one that on a normal day…I would consider getting a sub and going back to bed…but…it isn’t a normal day…it’s the next to the last day of school…it’s a half day…and…I have lots to do that a sub couldn’t do…and…besides…Bertha…says that for all the afore mentioned reasons…I have to go to work…

And…honestly…there was never really any question about it…but…I have to ask…if I’m supposed to do what feels good…and it would feel so good to get the heating pad and go back to bed…

Why am I going to work…

She reminds me…that going to work today…actually feels better than not going…

She goes on to say…that doing what feels good isn’t about seeking instant pleasure in the moment…it’s about doing things…and doing them in a way…that make me feel good about myself in the long run…like fulfilling my obligations…being responsible…

And…that if something makes me feel guilty later…it really didn’t feel good…

Hmmm…how did this turn into a lecture…Bertha…that doesn’t feel good…can you stop now…

She agreed to stop…but only because…I have to get ready for work

Jane

Longevity…

Life is too…long…to be unhappy…that’s what…Bertha…is telling me this morning…and…it’s not that I’m…unhappy…no…not at all…she’s just reminding me…

That life is too long to work in a job I hate…so…I should find something that I love about mine…every day…so that I will never hate it…

That life is too long to be in a relationship with someone I don’t love…so…I should focus on the things that I love about him…every day…so that I will always love him…

That life is too long to spend my days worrying…so…I should look for the positive in every situation…every day…so that I won’t be worrying…

That life is too long to live with regrets…so…I should live my life the way I want it to be lived…spend time with the people that I want to be with…so that I won’t have regrets…

I’m not sure exactly where this came from this morning…but…I know where it’s going…to…contemplation…and…appreciation…of all the wonderful things in my long life…

Jane