Forgetting the One Percent…


Yesterday…I went for my now annual Chiari checkup…essentially this consists of a MRI and visit with the neurosurgeon…pretty painless…except for the lying perfectly still for twenty minutes while listening to some pretty strange sounds…but…I’ve had so many of them now…that I don’t even get anxious anymore…

Before leaving for the visit…I thought that I was 99% certain everything would be fine…the syrinx would still be gone…my brain would still be where it belonged…

I’m essentially doing at least as well as I was this time last year…and some things have gotten better…so…the MRI should look good…right…

But…I wanted to go with full confidence…I asked…Bertha…how could I be 100%…her answer surprised me a bit…

She said…I should forget about the 1% and focus on the 99%…basking in all the improvements that I have made…some even in the last few weeks…and not worry about the sneaky little doubts that I still had…and that last bit of reassurance would come to me…

Hmmm…interesting concept…she went on to say that it didn’t matter if it were the other way around…that if I were only 1% certain…I should focus on that…that one tiny little shred of evidence…appreciate it…expand upon it…while essentially ignoring the 99% as best I could…and…things would start to shift…before long…it would be at least 50-50…

So…I did my best to focus on the positive during the drive…and while I sat in the waiting room for two and a half hours…seems someone…AKA…me…got the time confused…but that’s a topic for another day…while I was in the machine…and waiting for the doctor…

I had a great report…improvement shown from last year…come back in a year…

And…while all of my symptoms are not resolved…will probably never be resolved…at this moment…I am 99.9% certain that I am getting better instead of worse…

Bertha…is still working on the 0.1%…

Jane

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