Promises Kept…


I woke up yesterday with the best of intentions…I would write…I would clean…do laundry…I would go to the gym…I got up plenty early…five o’clock…I promised myself…it would be a productive day…
Four hours later…nine o’clock…half a normal work day…the only thing I’d done was posted the blog…hmmm…slow writing for such a short piece…not really…mostly…goofing off…
Okay…a lot of time gone…restructure…maybe I wouldn’t clean or do laundry…yeah…I hate to give that up…but…I would write…and…I promised I would go to the gym…just as soon as I…check email…see what’s happening on Facebook…write this chapter…eat…digest…read a little more…hmmm…but…I was going to the gym…I promised
Before I knew it…it was after five…a full twelve hours had passed…and then some…and I had not made it to the gym…it was time to put up or shut up…and honestly…I seriously considered shutting up…
It was almost dark…I didn’t really want to go…oh…I was dressed to go…I’d been dressed to go all day…doesn’t that count for something…no…it should…you sure are a stickler for rules…geez…
And…Bertha’s a stickler for living my truth…it was about that time that she pointed out…all the promises I’d started breaking…I pleaded innocent…I kept my promises…if I promised someone I would do something…I did it…
But…what about promises to me…she so eloquently pointed out…yeah…skillet to head…again…that every time I break a promise to me…that I have undermined…my truth…my self-confidence…setting me up for failure…
She reminded me of little promises I’d made and broken…I hadn’t even paid them any attention…a phone call I was going to make…a card I would send…a treat I wouldn’t eat…money I wouldn’t spend…the list went on…but…I think you’ve got the message…and I’m humiliated enough…
So…there I was…decision time…live my truth…or…break a promise to myself…I reached for the car keys…there was an exercise bike…waiting…with my name on it…and…I had miles to ride before I slept…
Jane

4 thoughts on “Promises Kept…

  1. I was up at 4am yesterday. Went to work for 5 hours and once I got home it was 11.30pm before I knew it. It's 5.50pm Sunday as I write this. Why does time go so slow at work yet when you love doing something like article writing it just fly's by. I wrote a hub on the subject of time.
    http://hubpages.com/t/2cd29d

  2. Steve…you're life sounds…busy…at best! I read your hubpage…and really enjoyed it. I like your perspective. I attempted to follow…but I'm not sure it went through…if not…I'll try again.

    Thanks for stopping by…and sharing some of your moments with me.

  3. Did you make it to the gym at the end of the day Jane? I find that making a to-do list in the morning really does help! Number one on the to-do list is "create the to-do list" hehe so I always get number one done! Good post today.

  4. Yes, Christy…I did…and also the next evening…and even this morning…three days in a row…planning for four…

    I like your first task of the day…mark it off first thing…

    Thanks…and thanks for visiting!

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