Rules to Live By…

I just realized that in the two years I’ve been blogging…I haven’t written a blog…on…May 14th…now I have no idea why that is…has there been some black hole that swallowed me on May 14th…is this the anniversary of something that prevents me from putting words on a page…

Honestly…I have no idea…but…once again…this morning…there was no blog written…so…that would have been…three years in a row…

Bertha…nixed that…and insisted that I write one now…

She said it’s a lot like my life in general…that patterns start to develop when I’m not paying attention…and…that before I know it…they are habits…then…they are rules to live by…even though I don’t have a clue how it all happened…

So…let me get this straight…I was about to create a…rule to live by…that says I can’t blog on May 14th…or…is she talking about some of those other patterns that are developing…the ones that I don’t want to talk about…

Hmmm…

Jane

Flowing Like a River…

Yesterday was a big anniversary day…thirty-six years since I graduated from nursing school…thirty-seven since my once husband and I got engaged…and it was also his niece’s birthday…happy birthday…Sweetie

I’m not sure why I remember those dates…after so many years…you’d think they would become fuzzy…but…they don’t…they were important enough at the time they occurred…to become permanently etched in my memory files…

I keep a lot of those dates…dates that are totally meaningless and forgotten by others…I like to keep hold of them…bring them back to visit every so often…and…usually the ones that I keep…are good memories…

Now…obviously…I can’t remember what happened each and every day since the beginning of me…and that’s one of the things that I love about journaling and blogging…I can look back…what was happening last year at this time…the year before…and before…

Sometimes…it’s frustrating…as I find I am still…stuck…struggling with the same…issues…the same bills…the same weight…the same relationships…

Bertha…points out…that although it seems that I’m still in the same place at times…I’m really not…I’ve changed…I’ve grown…it’s like a river…the water looks the same…but…it isn’t…it has rained…evaporation has taken place…the current has shifted things…children have splashed and played…and yet…it still looks the same…but…really…it’s not…there’s always movement…

Hmmm…not where I thought today’s blog was going…but that’s how it is with Bertha…I never know where it’s going…but…it gives me something to contemplate…and…next year…I can look back on today…and see what was going on…

Jane