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I want to write…but…I’m not sure that my thoughts are coherent…quit rolling your eyes…and…snickering…my thoughts are usually coherent…well…sometimes…okay…you’re right…they’re rarely coherent…good…then you probably won’t notice the difference…you are getting testier than…Bertha…geez…
I stayed home from work with a headache…I called it a migraine…people understand migraine…but…honestly…it’s a Chiari headache…and…I’ve had them for years…although…I didn’t know what caused them…I just knew…that bright lights…barometric pressure changes…and certain music…would trigger headaches…that sometimes lasted for days…
At this point…almost bedtime…my head doesn’t exactly hurt…but…it’s still cloudy…feels like I have a hangover…and…no…I haven’t been drinking anything…except water…and I didn’t take narcotics…don’t be so quick to assume the worst…geez…it’s just the fuzziness that lingers after the pain goes away…
Honestly…I don’t have the headaches…nearly…as often as I used to…but…each time I do…it feels like an assault…a disappointment…each time one is over…I somehow…assume it is the last…
Then…I remember…
He said the surgery wouldn’t stop the headaches…but…I wanted it to…he moved my brain…tucked it all back in…where it was supposed to go…I wanted all the symptoms to go away…it seemed only fair…
He said the surgery wouldn’t reverse the numbness…but…I wanted it to…he moved my brain…tucked it all back in…where it was supposed to go…I wanted all the symptoms to go away…it seemed only fair…
This list could go on…and…on…with what could be considered minor inconveniences…except…there’s little point to enumerate…most of us have a list of some sort…badges of honor…badges of dishonor…from years of living…scars…visible…invisible…that we deal with…
And…although…it sounds like I’m whining…I’m really not…I’m just coming to terms with it one more time…
He moved my brain…tucked it all back in…where it was supposed to go…I wanted all the symptoms to go away…it seemed only fair…
Jane