Shine On…

I gave up resolutions a long time ago…seems I never kept them…probably because they were some form of whipping me into shape…usually literally…and…somehow…that has never set well with my stubborn side…

I’ve found that setting an open-ended intention for the year works much better…it’s softer…and has multiple ways of coming into being…

Two years ago…as I was having brain surgery in January…after years of ignoring symptoms and pushing myself…I chose the intention of being gentler with myself…which worked well…as I found the recovery was more lengthy than I had anticipated…I needed a gentle year…of reading…resting…and non-pressured writing…

Last year…I chose to live fully…but…I also kept being gentle…which was a good thing…because the first half of the year…I still didn’t feel like living what I would have called fully…it’s only been in the last few months…that I have felt like really being active…the gentle component has helped me to realize that…living fully isn’t about activity…although that can be a part of it…it’s more about being present…finding ways to appreciate the everyday joys of life…a child’s smile…a kind word…the person who lets me ahead of them in the checkout line when I only have one item and they have a cart full…and…milking them…celebrating them…

This year…it’s a word…shine…and…I’m not exactly certain what it means…oh…I know the definition of the word…I’m just not sure how it is going to show up in my life…at first…I was excited…I’ll shine as an author…I’ll sell a million books and be on TV…but…Bertha…let me know that although that would be wonderful…just like activity isn’t living…being successful isn’t shining…

In fact…she tells me…that…shine…isn’t something that I can consciously do…I can’t will myself to shine…it’s actually the outcome from continuing to live my other intentions…being gentle…living fully…combined with the practices that sustain me…prayer…contemplation…meditation…the forgiveness prayer…writing…

Sounds good to me…shine on…

Jane

What Years May Come…

Mama has always said…start the year off doing something you’d like to do all year…and…unlike some of Mama’s advice…I’ve always tried to do that…this morning was no exception…

I painstakingly selected an outfit to wear…one that accentuated the pounds that I’ve lost…and still flattered those that I haven’t…I took care with my makeup and hair…even though I didn’t have any major plans for the day…

All was going well…

I made the bed and tidied up…emptied the dishwasher…smugly envisioning what a wonderful year I would have…my life would be orderly…I would look good…what could be better…

Well…a nutritious breakfast of course…I do intend to continue my healthy eating habits this year…

I put fresh spinach and onions in the skillet for my favorite omelet…while I whipped a couple of eggs…not quite certain why the spinach wasn’t cooking…I realized that I had neglected to turn on the stove…hmmm…but not to worry…it was corrected soon enough…and it was time to pour in the eggs…I lifted the edges as they cooked…I rotated the liquid around the pan…just like I always do…but these…well…they didn’t quite flip just right…and it wasn’t the prettiest omelet I ever made…but with my sliced tomatoes…it still looked good enough to eat…

So…I brought it to my office…where I proceeded to multitask…in retrospect…perhaps not my wisest decision…however…hindsight is 20-20…anyway…as I perused Facebook…holding my plate with one hand…and scrolling with the other…my omelet decided it wanted a do-over on the flipping…landing squarely in my lap…while the tomatoes not wanting to be left out…visited the keyboard…and…the pants I’d carefully selected visited the laundry basket…

I’ve also paid bills and balanced my checkbook…painted my toenails…started the laundry…and now…I’m writing my blog…I’m not sure what all that says for my year ahead…but…I’m certain that…Bertha…will fill me in on the details in a bit…she always does…

Jane