The Brave…and…The True…

Yesterday was a good day…yesterday I was brave…not always the case…yesterday…I asked for help…hmmm…not something I’m good at…
Funny thing is…most people…me included…enjoy helping others…of course…like others…I don’t want to be taken advantage of…but…it does my heart good…to be able to give to another…
So…why…is it so difficult to ask for something when I need it…
Hmmm…I’m not sure why I said…hmmm…I know the answer…actually…answers…first…it’s hard to ask for help…because…I’m afraid the other person will say…NO…and…second…I’m afraid someone will see me as weak…
So…I rarely ask…
Interestingly…Berthayeah…we knew it would be…Bertha…says that asking for what I need…is actually part of living my truth…she went on to say…that some people will say…no…for a variety of reasons…and…that some people will see me as being weak…for a variety of reasons…but…that for the most part…I’ll get the help I need…
I think she’s right…okay…I know she’s right…it’s just hard to go against years of stoic beliefs…
Now…Bertha…is saying that I should explain what I asked for…before…you think…I asked to borrow a million dollars…or…asked someone to cut my grass for the year…
Yesterday…I realized that I was a few ‘likes’ shy…of getting stats on my Facebook author’s page…so…I bucked it up…posted a request in the MasterKoda writing group I’m in…put in on my home page…and sent requests to many on my friend list…
Anyway…she was right…some people said…no…or just didn’t respond…some people may have thought I was weak…I’ll probably never know that…
But…what can I say…today…I have stats…they call it…Insights…Bertha…says I’m a long way from…insights…geez…
I’m learning…asking for help…isn’t necessarily a bad thing…it is part of living my truth…part of honoring who I am…
In fact…if you have some extra cash…or…a lawn mower…could you come on over…wow…I might get to like this…asking…
Bertha…quit hitting me with the skillet…I was kidding…geez…
Jane