Abundant Autumn…

With all the talk I’ve done about autumn being a time of death and change…Bertha…reminds me…it is also a time of harvest…a time when I reap the bounty of my efforts from months before…

She reminds me of the abundance of the autumns of my youth…my parents were John Deere farm equipment dealers…I think I mentioned this a few posts ago…and this was our cycle of finances…in the spring…farmers were planting and getting ready for the new crop…not having extra cash at the time…they charged their purchases…big and small…same thing in the summer…but…come fall…when their crops came in…they paid their bills…and…the cycle started again…

Now…it’s not that we didn’t have any money in between…or that no one paid their bills…of course we did…of course they did…it’s just that with the crops…came the abundance…and thankfully…that coincided with Christmas gifts…

Bertha’s…reminding me that this is the time to enjoy the abundance from my past efforts…to celebrate all that has come to me over the past year…

My health immediately comes to mind…I feel so much better than I did a year ago…it was a year of continued recovery from my surgery…

My writing quickly follows…last year at this exact time…I wasn’t even writing anymore…this year…I’m blogging…sharing articles on other sites…and…Bertha-Size Your Life! has been revived…and is doing well…

I now have an image of giving…Bertha…CPR…BerthaBertha…are you alright…okay…I’ve taught too many CPR classes…but…you get the drift and I’ve drifted way off topic…

There are other areas of my life that are in abundance right now…I won’t list all of them…but…I will spend some time appreciating them…as I pay my metaphorical bills…and start preparing for next year’s crop…

Jane

And the Grim Reaper Comes to Call…

Bertha…showed up today…in a skeleton mask….wearing a long, hooded, black robe…carrying a scythe…at least…I hope it was…Bertha…and considering her nudges lately…I’m pretty sure it was her…either that…or someone was really early for Halloween…

She’s been talking to me about change…and…how all change is actually a death…but…that contrary to my previous beliefs…death isn’t necessarily a bad thing…it’s just the first step of change…of getting to where I want to be…

As an example…she said…before I can lose weight…my old eating and exercise habits have to die…my old ways of relating to food as comfort…have to die…

And…I know that is true…I just hadn’t considered them as…death…until now…

She’s saying that autumn…represents a time of death…no matter how prettily dressed the falling leaves are…they are dying…to make way for new leaves in the spring…and…just like with leaves…there is often a gap between…the death…and the rebirth…a time of nurturing and rest…the decaying leaves actually fertilize the soil for the new leaves to come…just as my dying habits strengthen and fertilize my new way of living…

An interesting concept…one that I understand on many levels…but that I believe will continue to evolve for me over the next few months…as I seem to be in a time of transition in so many areas of my life…

I will be curious to see what happens…each time the Grim Reaper…comes to call…

Jane