Sans Guilt…

I was tired last Friday morning…I’d gone to bed a little late…and I gave Jane Carrollmyself…permission to…say in bed a little later to compensate…then…I gave myself permission to…not make the bed…and…then…I gave myself permission to…not wash the skillet after making my eggs…and…I went to work…

Saturday morning…I gave myself permission…to take the day as slowly as I needed to…not rushing from one task to the next…

And…that’s pretty much how my weekend went…as I continued to consider options…and then…give myself permission…to do the one that I chose…even if it might not have been the most…productive…one…

But…that wasn’t all…I gave myself permission…to eat what I wanted…even if it wasn’t what I…thought…I should be eating…and…yes…some ice cream was consumed…

Now…Bertha…points out that my actions aren’t so unusual for me…I’ve left the bed unmade…not washed the skillet…and…eaten ice cream many times before…but she says that there is an important difference…and that was the giving of permission…and therefore…the absence of…guilt

And…she’s right…I didn’t feel guilty in the least…now does this mean I will always make these choices…of course not…I went to be early last night…got up on time…the bed is made…I’m sure the skillet will be washed…and…there isn’t any ice cream in the house…

Honestly…I’ve spent so many years feeling guilty…for what I did…for what I didn’t do…that it’s a welcome change…and…I give myself permission to…continue to give myself permission…

Jane

To Slack or Not to Slack

I really don’t have a firm grasp on my writing this morning…so…I’ve done what I do best…procrastinated getting started…checking email…returning tweets…visiting with Facebook…that kind of thing…

I was feeling a bit guilty…a bit like I was slacking…until…Bertha…bounced in…pointing out…there was no reason to feel guilty…my activities were actually just distractions…

Well…duh…that’s the point…they were distractions that kept me from doing what I needed to be doing…

Her retort was quite interesting…at least to me who was apparently slacking…sometimes…distractions…are just the thing to turn off my left brain…so that my right brain…can do the writing…

Hmmm…I have to think about that for a minute…and I realize that she is right on…as usual…that when I’m stuck…if I leave it for a bit…and do something else…the answer usually comes to me…

Besides that…I was able to do some of my correspondence for the day…and…I saw a picture of my longtime friend’s new granddaughter…soooo cute…and…the blog is written…

So…maybe…just maybe…I wasn’t such a slacker after all…

Jane