Happiness Is…

Yesterday…Bertha…whispered to me…

The happier I am…the less it matters why I am…happy

Hmmm…she went on to explain…being happy…or…joyful…is the real…goal in life…not all the things…that I think will make me feel that way…not the new car…bigger house…killer figure…not even a pair of…Pradas

She reminds me…of the lime green swing coat…that…I had to have last year…envisioning how happy I would be wearing it…and…truly…I was so happy when I found it…when it was my size…and…on sale…and…I had Christmas money to pay for it…and…how I beamed the first few times I wore it…

But…

After that…I plucked it from the closet with barely a second glance…only thinking of…getting out the door…and…on to my next task…

So…if…the coat was to be my source of…happiness…it was short lived…and…that if I needed a new coat…every few weeks…to feel happy…that soon…I’d need a bigger closet…which…soon…would mean a bigger house…which…would require…a bigger paycheck…which would require…a more stressful job…which…all makes me unhappy just to type…

Her point…was…happiness…is short lived…whether it’s from an event…or a thing…it doesn’t last…and…besides…it really doesn’t matter why I’m happy…it’s the feeling that is important…

She suggests…that I look for happiness all around me…all the time…like…the touching moment with a friend yesterday that brought us to happy tears…the celebration with a student who got the hang of opening their locker…the hummingbird nibbling at the lavender during dinner…rather…than centering my happiness…on a single moment…or thing…

So…I guess I’m off…to find moments of happiness…tucked inside my day…but…now that she’s got me thinking about it…I do wish it wasn’t gonna be in the 90’s and I could wear that coat…but…it won’t be long until winter…when I can do just that…and…I can find a lot of things to be happy about…until then…

Jane

Where have all the Hummers Gone…

I’m frustrated…I haven’t seen a hummingbird all year…I know…I have butterflies…I have bumblebees…I have mockingbirds…I should be content…

I’m not…

In all honesty…I haven’t had a feeder out…but…I have lots of reddish blossoms…which…have fed plenty of hummers…in years past…I know…I should have had a feeder…and…I used to have several…but…they eventually bit the dust…and I just didn’t feel like replacing them last year…

So…I decided…it was time…a bought a new feeder…a cheapie…it leaked…can you say…ants…I threw it away…okay…lesson learned…I bought a better quality feeder…with four…spouts…I filled it with the nicest sugar water…you’d ever want to sip…and…I waited…and…I waited…and…I waited…and…nothing…nada…not nary a hummingbird in sight…

In years past…I could barely hang a new feeder…before the territorial wars had begun…I call them…hummingbuzzards…because…they are just downright mean when it comes to fighting over feeding rights…I’ve even been dive bombed by one of two…in the past…but…I digress..

Where…were the hummers…I did what I had to do…I Googled…and…for the first time…it let me down…evidently…there were no scholarly articles written…about the lack of hummingbirds in my small town in the summer of 2012…go figure…

Let down by Google…I did the next best thing…I Facebooked…that’s right…I posed my question as a status update…I could remember a friend doing that earlier in the year…only to come back later in the same day…to report a sighting…call me superstitious…I thought it might work for me…

It didn’t…

I got several comments…from local friends…who also reported having empty feeders…all season…with only an occasional hummer being sighted…one friend in Canada…did report that she has plenty…and will send some my way…I wonder how long it will take them to get to Alabama…hmmm…

I also got an interesting comment…from a friend…who said her young son…once asked her where the hummingbirds were…and she told him he needed to go outside and hum and they would come…surely enough…the next day they were there…she said she didn’t tell him until he was a teenager that it wasn’t the humming that brought them…

Hmmm…or…should I say…hum…you know I did…I’ve been outside…humming…and…inviting all the hummingbirds to come to my feeder…

So far…I’ve seen a rabbit…and…a squirrel…hmmm…maybe…I’m humming the wrong tune…Bertha…says…no…that I’m just off key…

What can I say…she’s right…but…at least…she didn’t relate it to my life…and…I think I’ll stop…before she does…besides…I’ve got some more humming to do…

Jane