I Said…Nothing…

Last week was Spring Break…and I had one ambition…to do nothing…well…I was going with Mama to a doctor’s appointment…and then…nothing…nada

Or at least that’s what I told anyone who asked…but…of course it wasn’t true…I had plans…I wanted to write…I wanted to work in the yard…I wanted to play a bit…there was stuff I really wanted to do…most of it just would take place at home…without a tight schedule…

Except…somebody…somewhere…must have taken me literally…because after a nice little stroll in the park…under some beautiful Bradford Pear trees…the most activity I had for the rest of the break…was covering my mouth when I coughed and sneezed…and applying eye drops…

Bertha…laughed…as much as she could at someone with red, swollen eyes that looked like something out of the horror movie…Nightmare on Bradford Pear Street

Anyway…she pointed out…that she’s been telling me for years…to say what I mean…to ask for what I really want…because…case in point…I just might get it…

And…she’s absolutely right…I had pretty much the exact week I told everyone I wanted…nothing…and…yesterday…when I thought I was going to be well enough to do a few things…wrong…I felt even worse than I had the day before…ensuring…that I did…nothing

So…have I learned my lesson…I hope so…I hope next time someone asks me what I’m planning to do…that I won’t say…nothing…unless…that’s what I really mean…and…trust me…it probably isn’t…

Jane

I Want…That…

Bertha…woke me up with this phrase several times during the night…

You can have anything you want…the trick is to forget what you don’t want…

She says…I’m not seeing the proverbial forest of my dreams…because I keep looking at the trees of my reality

Ahhh…busted…it’s so easy…for me…to focus on what is currently happening…to my body…to my bank account…to my relationships…the things I don’t want…that…I totally don’t see what I want…

So…today…she is challenging me…to pay attention to my thoughts…and…when I am focused on what I don’t want…to gently…ever so gently…shift my thinking…not necessarily to something that I want…that may be too big of a shift…but to something that makes me smile…something that makes me happy…she reminds me that finding something to appreciate is the perfect way to do that…

Okay…just for today…I accept the challenge…

Jane