Holding Hands…

I suppose it is the nurse in me…or…perhaps the mother…but…it’s really hard for me…to sit beside someone who is in pain…whether…physical or emotional…and…do…nothing

My propensity…has always been to…fix it…even if that meant…totally taking over the other person’s life…usually without permission…and…honestly…quite often…making things worse instead of better…

But…lately…Bertha…has been holding me back…which is somewhat akin to riding a bucking bronco…but being up for the challenge…she has definitely been reigning me in…bit by bit…

First…she told me I was…arrogant

What…me…humble servant to the masses…

She held firm…I was arrogant to believe…that…I knew better than the other person what they needed…I was arrogant to believe that…I…was the only one who could fix things…

Hmmm…

Then she pointed out…that…I really wasn’t being a friend when I took over…because…I wasn’t trusting the other person…to work things out…I wasn’t giving them the opportunity…to learn their lesson…and…grow in the way that they needed to…she related it to a toddler…if someone picked it up every time it stumbled and carried it…it would never learn to walk…

Now…she was quick to point out…that doesn’t mean…that…I ignore my friends…that I don’t help out…no…not at all…she’s just reminding me…that…sometimes…holding a hand…is the only helping hand…that’s needed…

Jane

Just a Burp in the Road…

The end is in sight…of the school year…that is…and…I have to admit…I’m getting overwhelmed…yes…I’m excited about the prospects of…two months off…but…between here and there…there are a lot of details to be addressed…closing out this year…getting ready for next year…things that can’t be done…until a specific time…and then…they have to be done quickly…

Oh…and did I mention…that I’ll be gone on field trips…three out of five days next week…and…one of those is an overnight…and not even for my school…

Just as the words…what was I thinking…I must be out of my mind…why did I volunteer to do that…start to buzz around in my head…

Bertha…appears…

Reminding me to…focus…

Reminding me…it’s like eating an elephant…take the first bite…then…take the next one…burp…take another…

The visual helps…an elephant sitting in my office…that’s exactly what it feels like…and…a plan starts to develop…things will get done…letters will go home…medications will be picked up…charts will be filed…

Burp

Jane

PS…Oh…and she says it’s the same for all areas of my life…bite…burp…bite…rinse and repeat…