Too Much to Do…

Today…is the last official day of summer break…interestingly…I thought I’d want to spend the day…doing all the stuff that still needs to be done…but…in actuality…I’ve been much more inclined…to…turn within…spending more time…contemplating…meditating…just being…

I had to question…the rationality of this…shouldn’t I be completing my projects…whilst I still had the time…

Bertha…reminds me of the quote by Martin Luther…

“I have so much to do that I shall spend the first three hours in prayer.”

She then explains…not for the first time…that…becoming grounded…actually helps me…sift through the day ahead…determining what is and isn’t important…setting priorities…and…getting more accomplished…

Hmmm…

I think…this is just her sneaky way of reminding me…that she will start waking me up at 3:00am next week…whether I think I like it or not…

Grrrrr…

Jane

One Dark Morning…

This morning…I got up…dark and early…to go to the gym for my workout…I think it’s been about three weeks since I got there before work…it started simply enough…I had a cold…and…allergies…I was miserable…so I missed a full week…then…the cold was better…but my eyes were still bothering me…so…I still didn’t go…convincing myself that the extra rest would be good for me…

Finally…at the end of the second week of no activity…I started going in the afternoon and doing cardio…then…a workout on my day off…and…another on Sunday…and I knew…I needed to get back into my routine…

The only problem was…I didn’t want to…I wanted to work out…I just didn’t want to get up so early…I wanted to enjoy those last few minutes in the bed…I dreaded it…I made excuses…even during the night…when I got up to go to the bathroom…I recited all the reasons why I probably shouldn’t go…

But…this morning…when the time came…I got up…I won’t say I was…wide awake and ready…but…I got up…and I went…and…once I was there…I was glad I had gone…and…I know I will go again on Thursday…

Bertha…said that’s the way it is…it is easy to break a good habit…and it’s easy to stay there…making excuses…saying I’ll get back on my path…whatever it is…tomorrow…instead of taking action in the moment…

She says that the way to break that cycle…is to focus on what I really want…and…that will give me the push I need to get back in the swing of things…

Jane