Pushing Pushups…

Last week…I started back to the gym…I tried going last winter…and made it a few times…but…honestly…my heart wasn’t in it…and…I don’t think my body was either…even though it had been a year since my Chiari surgery…and even though physical activity should have been good for me…it made me feel worse instead of better…so…I quit going…

Anyway…last week…it just felt right…I actually…wanted…to go…and the cardio honestly felt good…after a few days of just cardio…I did the weight machines…it felt so good that I didn’t want to stop…except that I knew I wouldn’t be able to move the next day if I didn’t…

I’m looking forward to going after work today…maybe doing a yoga class…

Bertha…says the whole gym thing reminds her of my tendency to try to rush things in my life…trying to push through…instead of just waiting until I’m really ready…following someone else’s sense of timing rather than my own…

And…that makes me think of giving birth…and how…pushing…before the time is right…is counterproductive…actually slowing things down…

Hmmm…she’s right…I do have a tendency to try to push through…several areas of my life just flashed before my eyes…as today…I take the advice that I will soon be giving to the kids at school…

Stop pushing

Jane