Rolling Down the Red Carpet…

I had an incredible weekend…and…no…I wasn’t off jet setting…in fact…I only left home a handful of times…and none of those trips were very exciting

My excitement began on Saturday…by way of an announcement…Bertha-Size Your Life!…was currently tied for the best traditionally published book of 2012…in the Master Koda book contest…

Well…that was enough to give me heart flutters…knowing I was so close…and having no control over the final decision…Bertha…on the other hand took it in stride…and began writing her acceptance speech…starting with…I’d like to thank the members of the Academy…she also ordered a red runner for the living room…

So…putting it aside…I decided to focus on my tasks at hand…and…I did manage to get the artwork for the sequel organized and sent to the publisher…

In the meantime…I received a message about being on a radio program…and spoke with the host…and…yes…I will be on in March…it’s a great show…and I’ll be posting details about it soon…

Not long after that…the announcement was made…that…Bertha…was indeed the winner…and…life became a blur for a bit…what with…Bertha…squeezing into her Über sexy ball gown…and me trying to get the wrinkles out of that red rug…

After she made a few laps around the room…and thanked her supporting cast…the cat…I made a pot of chili and cleaned the kitchen…folded the laundry…and got things ready for today…

Hmmm…I’m beginning to feel like Cinderella…doing all the work while…Bertha…has all the fun…but…I suppose it is only fair…it is all about…Bertha…she’s the star…I just hold the pen…and write what she dictates…

And…that’s the way we roll…

Jane

Waiting for the Other Glass Slipper to Drop…

Bertha…brought up Cinderella last night…which is kind of unusual…we don’t usually talk about fairy tales…but she seemed to think this one related to my life…of course it did…doesn’t everything

She said that like Cinderella…I spend a lot of time…behind the scenes…working hard…and dreaming of someday…getting the recognition…that I want and deserve…

Hmmm…that does sound about right…so

So…what happens when that recognition comes my way…when I’m in the spotlight…

I squirm at the question…not unlike I do under that bright light…I remember working hard on a project…really doing a kicking job at it…but when I was praised publically…I felt uncomfortable…gave all the credit to the team…to my Mama…to the dog…to the copy machine…not just because it was true…but…because…I felt ill at ease with the attention…

Now…don’t get me wrong…I would have been miffed if I’d done all that work and no one had noticed…that’s what makes it a double edge Prince Charming’s sword…

Part of me wants to be recognized for a job well done…and part of me…still doesn’t quite feel worthy when I get it…and…what do I do…I discount it…what?…anyone could have done it…it was no big deal…I tell myself that I’m just trying to make the other person feel more comfortable…but…that’s not honestly the case…I’m keeping myself in my comfort zone…

That zone where I don’t fully recognize my own potential…and shy away when others do…

So…Bertha…being…Bertha…asks me how I think Cinderella felt when she got to the ball…when all eyes were suddenly on her…after years of fading into the woodwork that she was dusting…did she love the limelight…or did she think she was an imposter who would soon be found out…hmmm…

And…when she did get home…was she truly waiting for her prince to come…or was she waiting for the other glass slipper to drop…

Wow…a lot to think about this morning…guess this means more time in the contemplation chair…

Jane