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Letting go…it shouldn’t be so difficult…I’ve let go of the pain…of hurts…inflicted by others…why…do I not let go of hurts…that I inflict upon myself…doubts…insecurities…fears…nagging words…in the back of my mind…ever eager…to take the forefront…
It’s another layer…I’ve peeled this artichoke before…or so I thought…obviously…some tough outer leaves remained…preventing the tender heart from being fully exposed…
Maybe that’s it…maybe…I keep these insecurities…because…they prevent me from being vulnerable…keep me from exposing my true self…even to me…but…especially to others…
They keep me in…my place…perhaps it’s safe…but…it’s not where I want to be anymore…and…so…one more time…I peel off those tough protective leaves…not knowing…if it will be the last time…but…resolving…to continue the process…until at last…it is done…
Jane
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This message keeps showing up for me… Cheryl Richardson just said something similar on Facebook yesterday:
"Stop beating yourself up because you find yourself back in the same place faced with the same lesson. Life is a spiritual schoolroom. Sometimes we need to get a new piece of the puzzle to lock the learning in place."
So once again my soul sister… we are going through something very similar. Thank you for posting this… I find myself revisiting my BIG GIANT HAIRY SCARY life lesson yet again… and this time, I'm determined to take a big step forward… to release fears, and to not stay so safe…
ROCK ON.
Jenn…I love Cheryl Richardson's remark…and…it fits exactly with how I am feeling…and will probably post in a bit…it's not exactly the same lesson…it's layers…and…each time we peel one off…it feels like it should be the last one…but…when it's not…it still gets us closer to the heart…
I love that you are my soul sister…let's just keep peeling that artichoke…Bertha has the garlic butter waiting…LOL!
It is so hard to be vulnerable. But when you are, the best things can truly happen. I like the line "I've peeled this artichoke before…", very creative wording!
Thank you Christy. I guess we could say…vulnerable is valuable…because…it truly is…and I'm really starting to understand that.
Glad you liked the artichoke line… 🙂