Once I wanted you to like me so much…that I never disagreed with you…or voiced my opinion until I knew what yours was so I could agree with you…
Once I wanted you to like me so much…that I always said yes to any request you made of me…no matter how inconvenient it was for me…or how much I just really didn’t want to do it…
Once I wanted you to like me so much…that I put your wants and needs above others who were important to me…my family…my friends…my career…myself…
Once I wanted you to like me so much…that I put on a mask…so you couldn’t see the tears when you disappointed me once again…and your approval never came…
Once I wanted you to like me so much…that I would have sold my soul to the Devil to make it so…
Until…one day…I realized…you…could/would…never like me…because…you didn’t know me at all…all you knew was a plastic shell…a twisted Barbie…trying to be perfect…afraid that who she was wouldn’t be who you wanted…
I reclaimed the pieces of who I am…one by one…deciding…what I wanted to keep…what I wanted to discard…and…one of the things I discarded…was…my overpowering desire that you should like me…
And…now…I like myself…
Jane
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sometimes I imagine all those years I wasted seeking to be liked and approved of by he who does not matter and what a different life I live now that I don’t care one bit. <3
I know what you mean Peggy…but I also have to be grateful for those years…because they molded me into who I am and I like that person pretty well…and like you…what a different life I live. <3
The person reading will know who this applies to: I can no longer care anymore if you care about me because I’m exhausted and feel that I have only cheated myself by putting myself down and making light of my own self in order for your feelings to be protected. I’ve always been a person to do whatever it takes for you to like me. I cant help who I am or my birth order. We are all looking for acceptance. We just have to stop and realize we all are unique and wonderful. I like me because there’s alot to like.
Wow…Karhy…you said that so well. We are all looking for acceptance and I’m so glad that you are giving it to yourself.
Thank you, Jane! I was the same way once upon a time. Now, I have done a 180! Not only will the people you want to love you won’t, they will use the largest knife in your back, then twist it. It is a waste of breath to even deal with them…
You are so right Carolyn…it’s exciting to find women who have made the 180…I’d be interested to know if there was a turning point for you or if it was just a gradual shift.
One more thing. I am going to become a writer. It is my passion, so in some weird way these people might see themselves in my writings. Names changed to protect me of course!
All the people you’ve ever known show up in your writing, Carolyn…if not in ‘character’ then in feeling. I believe it is the feelings that we bring to the page that make good writers. Can’t wait to read your words.