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If it burns going downā¦it burns coming back upā¦Iāll never forget those words I was told as a young nurseā¦caring for a child who had swallowed lye…well-meaning parents had made the child vomitā¦which had doubled the damage…
Those words have stuck with me for over 30 yearsā¦could be because Bertha keeps whispering them to meā¦reminding me thatā¦sometimesā¦things hurt just as muchā¦if not moreā¦coming back upā¦as they did going downā¦
According to Berthaā¦memories of painful eventsā¦can be just as caustic as the most powerful poisonā¦
She says if an event was painful when it happenedā¦itās just as painfulā¦causes just as much damageā¦every time you bring it back up and share itā¦even if itās only to remember itā¦
Thatās why itās important to know the proper antidoteā¦for swallowing lyeā¦itās usually drinking milkā¦for painful life eventsā¦itās usually forgivenessā¦
I wish it were something easierā¦for the memoriesā¦that isā¦I find it difficult to keep my mouth shut when someone hurts my feelingsā¦I want to tell the worldā¦justify my feelingsā¦prove I was rightā¦they were wrongā¦
I find it even harder to turn off my brainā¦Iām like a cow chewing her cudā¦I keep bringing it up time and time againā¦
Butā¦sheās rightā¦every time I bring that slight back upā¦I feel like crap all over againā¦and if Iām sharing it with anotherā¦they donāt feel so good eitherā¦
Sometimesā¦Iām just not ready to forgiveā¦Iām really angryā¦Iām really hurtā¦I want to smolderā¦butā¦Iām only harming myselfā¦the longer I hold on to the painā¦the more damage is doneā¦
Thatās when she reminds me of the forgiveness prayerā¦I love youā¦Iām sorryā¦please forgive meā¦thank youā¦said to my spiritā¦not to the other personā¦
Itās all about forgiving inside of me firstā¦itās all about loving meā¦the resulting feeling of love can then flow to the other personā¦or notā¦forgiveness really isnāt about healing themā¦itās about healing meā¦
I wish I could say I am really good at thisā¦that I never bring up old painā¦butā¦I doā¦to myselfā¦and othersā¦just not so much as I once didā¦soā¦I am getting better at forgiving and letting goā¦
Honestly in the scheme of thingsā¦forgiveness is easier for me than drinking milkā¦just sayingā¦
Jane
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Another bit of wonderful food for thought…Keep it coming. Forgiveness is way easier for me than drinking milk too, yucky!
Thanks, Cheri! We do have a lot in common!