Mid-Dream’s Summer Night…

IMG_6039-2 copyThis morning…Bertha…whisper-shouted to me…that…I’m in…Mid-Dream…the most dangerous time for me…and maybe you…it’s that time…when I’ve already clarified and visualized…I know what I want…and what I need to do to get it…I believe with all my heart that I can achieve it…

Until…I start taking action…and somewhere in the taking of action…I tend to shove all the practices which support it…to the side…saying that I don’t have time to do them…

And…while it’s true…I’m busier than a beaver in a lumber yard…she reminded me that…the action…without my processes…becomes overwhelming…I get lost in the trees…and I get scared because…I can’t see the forest…I’m not far enough along to see the end…and make a dive for the finish line…so…I tend to get lost in the middle…where it’s really easy to give up…with a sigh…that one more thing didn’t work out…

Okay…she nailed me…doesn’t she always…that’s exactly where I am…and although I’ve continued…mediation…contemplation…prayer…visualization… affirmations…journaling…Ho’oponopono…and…tapping (EFT)…I have to admit…I tend to brush them aside when time is short…in favor of action…

But…interestingly…that action is often ineffective…it isn’t inspired…it isn’t effortless…

So…back to the contemplation chair…I have lots to do…and I want it to be effective…oh…look…there’s a tree…and…another…maybe the middle of the forest isn’t so bad after all…

Jane…

I Want…That…

Bertha…woke me up with this phrase several times during the night…

You can have anything you want…the trick is to forget what you don’t want…

She says…I’m not seeing the proverbial forest of my dreams…because I keep looking at the trees of my reality

Ahhh…busted…it’s so easy…for me…to focus on what is currently happening…to my body…to my bank account…to my relationships…the things I don’t want…that…I totally don’t see what I want…

So…today…she is challenging me…to pay attention to my thoughts…and…when I am focused on what I don’t want…to gently…ever so gently…shift my thinking…not necessarily to something that I want…that may be too big of a shift…but to something that makes me smile…something that makes me happy…she reminds me that finding something to appreciate is the perfect way to do that…

Okay…just for today…I accept the challenge…

Jane