Reluctant Gardener…

Yesterday morning…someone asked me…what I was going to do this summer…and I replied…

Whatever I want to…

Now…I wasn’t being flip…that’s what I plan to do…

I went on to recount the few things I actually have planned…and…some of the things that I think I want to do…write…bike…gym…read…beach…rest…

At the time…I thought the list sounded a little selfish…even as I went home and took a nap

Later…Mama called…my nephew was coming to lay out the garden rows…and she was going to plant…tomatoes…

Now…I have to confess…I detest gardening…not sure exactly why…I enjoy puttering in my pots at home…I can even enjoy raised bed gardening…but…there’s nothing about actual gardening…in a big plowed field…that I like…other than eating the finished product…maybe it’s because I did a lot of it growing up…not sure…just leave it to say…if it was up to me…no…regular…garden would be planted

So…my reply might seem odd…

I’ll be happy to help…what time to I need to be there

At the time…I thought I was crazy…I had just said…mere hours ago…that…I was going to do…whatever I wanted to…all summer long…and…then…I almost immediately volunteered to do something that I don’t enjoy at all…

Bertha…on the other hand…said…that there was no discrepancy…at all…that…I didn’t say I was going to do things that I enjoyed all summer…I said I was going to do what I wanted to…and those are necessarily the same thing…

She reminded me…there are things…that I want to do…that I don’t enjoy…all that much…but…I want to help others…I want a clean house…clean clothes…and…her list could have gone on and on…

Hmmm…she’s right…although I don’t enjoy gardening…I did want to help Mama…

Maybe…I’m not crazy…after all…

Jane

PS…my sister also came for the planting…and…we actually had fun…but…please don’t tell…Bertha…she’ll have me planting squash or something…oh…wait…we did that too…

One Trick Pony…

You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help other people get what they want. ~ Zig Ziglar

I just love when…Bertha…can’t directly get my attention…she starts sending me messages in other ways…usually…multiple times…and so it was with the above quote…first I saw it on Facebook…and it reminded me of my friend who is always doing so much to help others…so I shared it on her page…but…evidently…it was meant for me as well…because it showed up the next morning in a blog that I subscribe to…

This one is a bit hard for me…not that I don’t enjoy helping other people…I love that…it’s just…when do I have the time to do what I need to do…if I’m spending it helping others…

Bertha…says…not to worry…Zig doesn’t say that I have to do it all…alone…take care of myself and everyone else…the implication…is that when I am giving to others…that things will flow back to me…either by someone else helping me…or…that they’ll just go easier…being in the right place at the right time kind of thing…

The trick is…to allow that help to come to me…that’s not easy for me…Mama says that at two I stomped my foot and said…NO! I’ll do it myself…and…I guess I haven’t changed that much over the years…somehow thinking that in doing it…myself…I was somehow proving I was a strong person…letting go of that stubborn independence…is tough for me…but…just for today…I’m going to try…

Jane