Sometimes I Cry…

Bertha…laughed at me the other morning…saying that I’d regressed to starting my days off like the day I was born…naked…on the scales…and…sometimes I cry

I had to laugh…that’s exactly what I’ve been doing for the last several months…well…usually I don’t cry…but…sometimes it is frustrating when my diligent efforts at eating healthy and exercising don’t show up on the scales…

All and all…I have nothing to cry about…I’ve been at this less than six months…and I am at least half-way to my goal…maybe more than that…since I’m not really sure what my goal is…I’m hoping that I’ll know it when I get there…and…have the good sense to stop the weight loss…and start maintaining…

And…that’s truly my goal…to reach a healthy weight…even if it isn’t what some would call skinny…but…one that I can easily maintain…without living on lettuce and water…and…for the first time in my life…have a wardrobe that isn’t in flux…

Jane

Smug As a Bug in a Rug…

I don’t know about you…but…as much as I hate to admit it…I can get a bit smug at times…when I’m really proud of my accomplishments…and wondering why everyone else isn’t on the same page as me…

Case in point…a few years ago…I decided to lose weight…and that’s exactly what I did…it wasn’t a rapid process…but…it didn’t take that long…either…I did it on my own…changing my eating habits…increasing fiber-rich foods… limiting sugary treats…and…adding exercise…lots of exercise…

About the same time…a well-known actress…was promoting a weight loss program…after having lost about the same amount of weight as I had by using their program…

The only problem was…she started to gain the weight back…there was a big scandal and she was fired as spokesperson…

Then…there was the former winner of…The Biggest Loser…who had also gained all his weight back…

I couldn’t understand these people…they had worked so hard…they looked so good…how…why…could they gain the weight back…I would never do thatI could never do thatI had changed my lifestyleI would never go back

Except…I did…

Oh…I had my reasons…and they seemed valid to me at the time…for adding a treat here…a comfort food there…I continued to eat healthy foods…just added junk on top…and I continued to exercise…but…I still gained weight…

Then…came the dreaded brain surgery…and I thought…oh…I’ll lose weight now for sure…I’ll eat healthy…but…let’s just say I didn’t…let’s just say…I gained more weight…

Thankfully…I’m back to my healthy eating habits again…if not my exercise routine…and I am beginning to lose again…but with a difference this time…I’m not feeling so smug…confident that I can do it…yes…but…not smug…

Which is just fine with me…and…Bertha…says smug really doesn’t become me anyway…

Jane